I'm always amused when people say things to me like “If this music thing doesn't pan out you could always...” and “Whats your backup plan?” The truth is I have no backup plan, and there is no safety net waiting to catch me if I fall. I know this makes some people uncomfortable and I can understand the logic behind wanting to have a contingency plan. But chasing a dream requires faith, and that's something I have an abundance of. Now don't get me wrong, I like a well laid out plan as much as the next person, but some things are just better left unscripted. For me having a backup plan or an expiration date attached to my dream feels a bit like being in a committed relationship, but keeping someone else on hold just in case things don't work out. Its like saying “I'm all in, but I have an out in case things get too hard”.
When my band fell apart and everything I'd worked so hard to build seemed to crumble around me, I took it hard. I felt completely defeated. I basically had to start over and I had a choice to make. I could either give up or I could adjust my plan and move forward. I decided to move forward and I rebuilt my career stronger than ever. That experience taught me that sometimes things have to break down in order to build a stronger foundation. At the time the situation felt like a death sentence for my dream when in reality it turned out to be the vehicle that started the wheels in motion for much bigger things.
In the wake of that so-called setback, I played a countless number of solo shows. I overcame my fear of playing guitar for an audience...and believe me when I say, that was huge! I still don’t consider myself a great guitar player, but I’m a lot better than I use to be because I put myself out there. I launched and funded a successful Kickstarter project that sent me to Nashville to record a new EP and following that experience, I uprooted my life to move to Music City.
What a shame it would have been if I had decided to fall back on something else, giving up my dreams because of a setback that was intended to bring me closer to them. Your dreams choose you as much as you chose them and you have to trust the journey. I believe in my dreams and I'm not prepared to give up on them. There may come a time when my dream changes course and I'll be flexible enough to follow it, but in the meantime this is plan A and there is no plan B. Like Dolly Parton once sang “ You gotta get your dreams in line and then just shine, design, refine till they come true!”
Thanks for reading! I’ll see ya at the Opry!